Meaning

Some of the deepest thoughts can come when you least expect them.

I want to matter.

Oh, how much there is in that statement. The longings of a boy reaching for the stars, the dreams of one who has yet to begin his life, the assumed values and worldview. All of these play a role.

I wonder how some don't go insane from that very thought. "I want to matter" could drive people to extremes. It leads men and women down roads they were not prepared to go, to give up morals just to be seen, and to fake arriving at the destination when really the horizon is always over the hill.

I want to matter.

Is this selfish? In what way do I want to matter? Just to be looked at as an icon? A watered down celebrity who smiles just like the rest? Or do I want to do something more.

I say the statement, "I want to matter" is deadly because we must say that there is a way of living that does not matter at all. But we also must say that "to matter" is an objective good, not a personal preference.

If it were only my preference to matter, then why can't my preference change? After all, sitting on the couch is much easier than it is to matter. To matter is hard. It means that you are submitting yourself to an ideal that may never happen. It may be your life's work to matter somehow, but if you never reach it, was it in vain?

I want to matter

Face it. This longing in all our hearts is not survival of the fittest. I may survive just as well, but be forgotten. Why must I be remembered? Why must I leave an impact.

We know there is more

It is counter intuitive to say there is nothing more. We long for greatness. We only fall to the depths of depression if we think we cannot attain it. But to be seen by men, to be perceived as a leader by the greatest among us is all we want. But this is vain. The greatest men will be forgotten. The books they write, the speeches they give, the men they influence... Will all be forgotten by men. This chase... Is vain. Except.

God looks at the heart

When I am alone, God sees what I am doing for Him.
When I feed the hungry, when I clothe the naked, I am doing these things for Him.
When I earnestly pray, and no one knows, God hears,
When I rub shoulders with someone and speak life into them, God rewards.

It is with God that we have meaning, purpose, vision.

It is with God that I matter